Overall: 5 Stars 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Plot/Storyline: 5 Stars 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Feels: 5 Stars 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Sensuality: 5 Stars 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Sadness. Loneliness. Emptiness. Numbness. Utter desolation. Those are the words that come to mind when I think of what occupies Christopher Argents soul. Inside he’s a cavernous abyss of nothingness. Devoid of feeling or compassion or anything that resembles humanity. He is an animal. A machine. He just does. He exists. He moves forward because he is there and for no other reason whatsoever.
That is, until he meets Millie LeCour, a woman he’s been contracted to kill and who steals his heart from the from the moment he sees her dying on stage in front of thousands of people. Millie is a mama-bear in every sense of the word. She would do anything to keep her son safe. And that it’s what she had been doing for 5 years. Then Christopher comes along and she finds herself embroiled with a man who simultaneously means to do her harm and protect her.
These two are drawn to each other from the first and they both find themselves grasping at and pushing away feelings they’re dying for and scared of at the same time. For Millie, the love that blooms between them is gradual and she grapples with the feelings as she tries to figure out whether her assassin-turned-protector is a man she can trust. Or more importantly, whether he even has the capacity to love her in the first place.
For Christopher, when he finally, finally feels, it’s not this gradual, fluttering of emotion that he slowly accepts. It rushes at him unbidden and intense. It explodes from him. Or rather, it’s torn, ripped from within him with nearly as much violence as he’d unleashed on the world before that very moment. It leaves him raw and open and suddenly hating everything he has become. It is simultaneously heartbreaking and devastating and wonderful and beautiful all at the same time.
It’s the intensity of the emotions from Christopher that made me fall in love with this book. The way we get to see into his heart, to hear and understand his feelings… It left my heart raw. I didn’t think it would be possible, but I loved him even more than I did Dorian Blackwell, who is a tough act to follow. They are both so tortured, but so different. Christopher had a sadness about him that just felt soul shattering.
And the way he makes love… Oh god! The sex in this book is so, so hot. It’s explicit and emotional and lengthy and satisfying. It’s on fire. It’s flooded with feeling and emotions that are dark and light and passionate and hungry and…everything.
I would be remiss if I didn’t also mention that I’ve finally found a murder mystery that I was interested in! It didn’t overwhelm the romance, it moved it along appropriately. And it was dark and haunting and gripping. And when the heroine was in real danger the way her fear is described is palpable.
My one complaint is that it ended rather abruptly and we didn’t get an epilogue. The epilogue in The Highwayman was great. I’m not sure why we didn’t get one here. It’s so unfortunate because I do feel this book needed one. Hopefully we will get a bit more in future books.